SERUTAN



Yesterday was quite a day. I never expected so many things to happen on that very short time. Paginya gw masih di Kuala Lumpur, enjoying my last day there, eventhough I was really craving to be home. Everything went right. Except for one thing. One big thing. Honestly, gw ngerasa gw kembali diserut kemarin. Dan serutan itu cukup tajam. I was feeling abandoned. Gw ngerasa dibuang oleh dua orang yang gw pikir paling sayang sama gw.

Untuk seseorang yang mungkin tidak akan membacanya :
"Kalo gw boleh bilang, mungkin semuanya ga akan seburuk ini kalo hari itu lu ga bilang kata-kata itu. Mungkin gw harus nyalahin lu kali ini. You shouldn't have taken me that high and now you just threw me like this. It hurts a lot, you know. What were you expecting from me dengan mengatakan itu? Telling me goodbye in that way? Well jika itu emang tujuan lu, it worked perfectly. Honestly, gw sendiri ga nyangka kalau gw selemah itu. I don't know why but sesuatu terasa sakit. Really, I didn't know what to do. Take your own path now. Be happy. She'll shine for you (as you wished). Me? I'll take my own path too. Goodbye (: "

Well, the other one, I'm glad to know that I wasn't being abandoned at all. But it was really strange. Ulang tahunku masih lama! Hihi. I was so happy to know that it was all a lie and I didn't even thinking about being mad. Thanks for those who really love me. Gw tau sekarang hal apa yang musti gw fokusin, dan hal apa yang tidak. Life still goes on, girl! I always know you will get through this (:

Sedikit cerita, yesterday I can't fall asleep. Sampai jam 4 waktu orang-orang udah pada mau sholat subuh gw baru bisa tidur. I was thinking about serutan itu. Ternyata serutan emang benar-benar sakit. Tapi gw mau jadi pensil yang tajam. Masih banyak hal-hal yang harus gw tulis. Dan Penulis gw, my great Daddy masih punya segudang cerita yang mau dia tulis dengan gw. I was thinking about one of my favorite song yang liriknya "Dan KAU yang ubahkan air mataku jadi lembah yang bermata air." I really loved that part. HE really did that! Thanks Papa ((:

*Special thanks for Sania Utari yang menghiburku walaupun dia gtau apa yang terjadi, Jane Reggievia yang sudah mau jadi "tong sampah"-ku (you know, in a good way *wink) dan Nico Mulyawan yang secara ga langsung sudah encourage me. Thank you so much, people <3

Picture credit : ZaCky ॐ

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